hey everyone . What's with way too much ? Ouh yeah , lemme tell you . It's was so easy to love someone right ? But so hard to stay strong loving someone for more than one years . How lucky he was right because my heart is still open for him ONLY . trully i said , I don't know why it sucks that i can't love other guy . I tried , my heart still awaits him .People keep talking shits about him but who ever cares ? Mind your own business lah .You guys are not that perfect to judge people . So better watch your words . So i guess he's not that perfect for me . Even sometimes ,my parents can't accept the way he is and how he acts . But i tried to tell them not to judge him .Mum ,dad he maybe not good as well as he looks but insyaallah he still have good friends to change him to become a better person . I believe that always .

And the very suprising news is when I try to keep it as a secret but then all of my friend knews it .so ? don't steal him from my heart or I kill you and make a pod sandwich . haha mindfucked . And one more thing is , i always feel happy when i with him and don't know why . I dreamt him lots more till i dreamt him was kill last month -.- I cried when woke up at that time . okay back to the story , i feel so happy . and its enough evento he don't know how to cheer me up sometimes but that's okay . I accept ihm the way he was right now .I'm feeling so blessful . Keep praying that he'll be mine one day .

Maybe they can say it's simple to forget it but swear it's hard like a bullet stucked in my brain for a 1000 years . lol lying but the truth is , i can't and still waiting for him . Insyaallah , I still remember when my basketball coach said that ," it's okay if you do love him ,keep praying but don't give to much hope because allah has return the names that ill be with you one day " and hope he is the one .amin ya allah amin . My birthday is coming and i hope he remember the day . How I wish we can be back and start up everything so that we can make our love again liek before . How i really miss everything with you . Well , hope that we'll feel it again when we get married together . Now on , i put him aside and keep focus on my studies .

Thanks for everything , and I'm sorry that i love you for so long xx

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